I want everyone to know something very very important.

I am ALWAYS ok when people leave.

The community always lives on when people leave.

What I care about is HOW it’s done.

With grace, respect, dignity and reverence for the work you have done while here.

I had a community member who left a couple of years ago who I had first asked to take a break because she was jealous of my relationship with Liv and was acting like a petulant child. She came back and then left again and I supported each thing.

Ultimately I support TRUTH, which means if it is time to break out of here and go a separate way, then of COURSE I support that.

People say I have “big reactions” when they leave. And they truth is I think they wish I did. I think they wish they were “more important” that I couldn’t possibly let them go and it is this big drama.

About 8 months after this woman left she wanted to come back to devotion and I said yup anytime. Then she went into all this wild demonization and said I was still angry she left. It was literally mind twisting.

And I realized, “oh you didn’t want to believe we totally moved on without you.”

Which I never said because she couldn’t hear me, before she torched her relationship with me.

I am not angry when people leave.

And I won’t tell you I don’t care.

Because I love everyone here and I pour that love into people.

But this is what I do know.

There is nothing like what I have created anywhere.

So people get conflicted in leaving because there is so much here.

The people, the field, the way I don’t allow any garbage in this space.

And then they kill it.

Every single person who has done this has a history of abuse, family enmeshment and serious codependency.

This is how THEY show up.

That’s not how I show up with them and definitely not how this space is held.

Sometimes it’s an important part of their journey to separate.

I actually see this as an important part of their path because this is also a normal stage of emotional development.

If you never were able to leave a relationship without destroying it or burning bridges then you will try or fail to do that here.

The other thing that people who end up demonizing have in common is an inability to receive.

They are always the takers.

The ones who picked things apart and only take in what they can without being out of control, without getting messy.

They are the ones who never heal their relationship with the Feminine.

The inability to hold paradox subtly or nuance.

They are the ones who needed me to be something for them.

They are the ones who never saw me clearly to begin with or appreciated the ful complexity of my whole being.

They are the idealists with utopian ideas of perfection.

They are the avoiders and the forcers.

What you never see are the peaceful departures and beautiful testimonials I never share. The ones full of love and gratitude who slip and go one with their lives.

At the end of the day I know who I am as a teacher and i also know the depths of my heart as a woman.

I also know my own deep human wounding and I’m in my practice more so than anyone I know.

When people pick me apart what they are doing is showing us all the places they don’t love themselves.

How do I know these are projections?

Because it’s not a shared reality.

There is no “thing” people can point to where they were wronged.

They point to how I am wrong.

Where they judge me.

And mostly where they simply don’t like me.

See I don’t need to like you to love you or hold you in your transformation.

I see a lot of disgusting behavior and characters in my work.

And I never allow it to get in the way of my love or seeing the depth of who someone really is.

I may have a business but the work I do is spiritual, karmic and for life.

I love you for life.

Even when you spit in my face.

I may say I’m not available for that, but I never stop loving.

That’s the job.

I want everyone to know something very very important.

I am ALWAYS ok when people leave.

The community always lives on when people leave.

What I care about is HOW it’s done.

With grace, respect, dignity and reverence for the work you have done while here.

I had a community member who left a couple of years ago who I had first asked to take a break because she was jealous of my relationship with Liv and was acting like a petulant child. She came back and then left again and I supported each thing.

Ultimately I support TRUTH, which means if it is time to break out of here and go a separate way, then of COURSE I support that.

People say I have “big reactions” when they leave. And they truth is I think they wish I did. I think they wish they were “more important” that I couldn’t possibly let them go and it is this big drama.

About 8 months after this woman left she wanted to come back to devotion and I said yup anytime. Then she went into all this wild demonization and said I was still angry she left. It was literally mind twisting.

And I realized, “oh you didn’t want to believe we totally moved on without you.”

Which I never said because she couldn’t hear me, before she torched her relationship with me.

I am not angry when people leave.

And I won’t tell you I don’t care.

Because I love everyone here and I pour that love into people.

But this is what I do know.

There is nothing like what I have created anywhere.

So people get conflicted in leaving because there is so much here.

The people, the field, the way I don’t allow any garbage in this space.

And then they kill it.

Every single person who has done this has a history of abuse, family enmeshment and serious codependency.

This is how THEY show up.

That’s not how I show up with them and definitely not how this space is held.

Sometimes it’s an important part of their journey to separate.

I actually see this as an important part of their path because this is also a normal stage of emotional development.

If you never were able to leave a relationship without destroying it or burning bridges then you will try or fail to do that here.

The other thing that people who end up demonizing have in common is an inability to receive.

They are always the takers.

The ones who picked things apart and only take in what they can without being out of control, without getting messy.

They are the ones who never heal their relationship with the Feminine.

The inability to hold paradox subtly or nuance.

They are the ones who needed me to be something for them.

They are the ones who never saw me clearly to begin with or appreciated the ful complexity of my whole being.

They are the idealists with utopian ideas of perfection.

They are the avoiders and the forcers.

What you never see are the peaceful departures and beautiful testimonials I never share. The ones full of love and gratitude who slip and go one with their lives.

At the end of the day I know who I am as a teacher and i also know the depths of my heart as a woman.

I also know my own deep human wounding and I’m in my practice more so than anyone I know.

When people pick me apart what they are doing is showing us all the places they don’t love themselves.

How do I know these are projections?

Because it’s not a shared reality.

There is no “thing” people can point to where they were wronged.

They point to how I am wrong.

Where they judge me.

And mostly where they simply don’t like me.

See I don’t need to like you to love you or hold you in your transformation.

I see a lot of disgusting behavior and characters in my work.

And I never allow it to get in the way of my love or seeing the depth of who someone really is.

I may have a business but the work I do is spiritual, karmic and for life.

I love you for life.

Even when you spit in my face.

I may say I’m not available for that, but I never stop loving.

That’s the job.