I planned an anniversary trip for Kellen and I up to Sedona.

I decided to book some activities which is not like me at all.

I booked a glass blowing class and I was looking for someone local who could take us to some special land sites off the beaten path.

I found this woman‘s site and booked a morning with her.

I was extremely open, though my expectations were low because without a referral I knew that there was a chance she would not be able to really understand the complexity of Kellen and I as humans showing up to her tour.

When she arrived she was rigid and closed and her posture was hunched.

I remained open and curious.

As we were driving I mostly listened to her stories and said yes when she explained energetic concepts that are part of my practice and body of work.

She stared telling me about how the land stirs things up and brings things for you to see in repetitive patterns.

“Yup. Sounds like a field to me!”

I started to have some concern when she had to stop and pull over because she was coughing sitting with me. It wasn’t a cough, it was a clearing.

When we arrived at the site I was so grateful because I never heard of this place nor would I have found it alone.

Kellen and I were standing there silently looking out over the canyon not speaking when she said “You know what, I’m going to take you back. I don’t think you can just BE. I don’t think you can get out of your mind.”

Now let’s be clear that by the time we got to the land I was full open.

My mind wasn’t even online and I was just there staring at her.

I said “I think you are having a hard time being with me and this feels like projection.”

I said we didn’t need her to facilitate anything and to just wait for us and we knew how to be with and listen to the land.

She quickly got excited again and walked us to her favorite spot.

She laid down blankets for us overlooking a cliff with the canyon below and across the way more cliffs and rock formations.

And she pointed. “That is ISIS Rock”

I laughed out loud.

Of course it was. These brilliant three pillars with what looked like wings at the top.

I thanked her and I told her we would come find her when we were finished.

She kept speaking to us like the energy was going to fuck us up.

When I sat down I said to Kellen, “oh it feels like the energy inside my body. Like the energy matches now on the outside.”

It was so peaceful for me.

I sat and just became fully one with the whole valley and I listened as the land spoke to me.

A few messages I’ve heard before reminding me of who I really am.

I can’t share those out loud. But it was important.

Then Kellen and I discussed “signs” and how they are just external markers of things we already know.

We had seen a Tarot reader in a group setting a few nights prior and she pulled the Queen of Pentacles for me. A sign of abundance of MATTER

And she said “The Empress. You are almost there.”

In the hallway of the restaurant was the most beautiful painting of a Tara I have ever seen.

The Mother of all Mothers.

So I embraced this game and closed my eyes sitting on this red earth and silently asked the baby spirit for a big sign I could not mistake if he was still coming.

And just then a sound broke the silence of the desert and over my right shoulder a helicopter appeared and flew across the canyon.

I laughed and told Kellen.

When we closed things up, we drove back. I gave her a big hug and told her not to worry and it was perfect.

We walk into the restaurant for lunch and I get an email that something huge happened (I can’t divulge) in a good way that I never dreamed was a possibility.

And I could feel all this energy free up and start moving faster.

Then as I hung up the call, I look down and there is a furry little caterpillar on my sweatshirt.

Hahahah. Oh the perfection is so so so perfectly perfect.

Buckle up my lovelies.

It’s about to expand around here.

We are ready to forge a new chapter.

And I’m so glad you are coming with us.

🙏🏻

I planned an anniversary trip for Kellen and I up to Sedona.

I decided to book some activities which is not like me at all.

I booked a glass blowing class and I was looking for someone local who could take us to some special land sites off the beaten path.

I found this woman‘s site and booked a morning with her.

I was extremely open, though my expectations were low because without a referral I knew that there was a chance she would not be able to really understand the complexity of Kellen and I as humans showing up to her tour.

When she arrived she was rigid and closed and her posture was hunched.

I remained open and curious.

As we were driving I mostly listened to her stories and said yes when she explained energetic concepts that are part of my practice and body of work.

She stared telling me about how the land stirs things up and brings things for you to see in repetitive patterns.

“Yup. Sounds like a field to me!”

I started to have some concern when she had to stop and pull over because she was coughing sitting with me. It wasn’t a cough, it was a clearing.

When we arrived at the site I was so grateful because I never heard of this place nor would I have found it alone.

Kellen and I were standing there silently looking out over the canyon not speaking when she said “You know what, I’m going to take you back. I don’t think you can just BE. I don’t think you can get out of your mind.”

Now let’s be clear that by the time we got to the land I was full open.

My mind wasn’t even online and I was just there staring at her.

I said “I think you are having a hard time being with me and this feels like projection.”

I said we didn’t need her to facilitate anything and to just wait for us and we knew how to be with and listen to the land.

She quickly got excited again and walked us to her favorite spot.

She laid down blankets for us overlooking a cliff with the canyon below and across the way more cliffs and rock formations.

And she pointed. “That is ISIS Rock”

I laughed out loud.

Of course it was. These brilliant three pillars with what looked like wings at the top.

I thanked her and I told her we would come find her when we were finished.

She kept speaking to us like the energy was going to fuck us up.

When I sat down I said to Kellen, “oh it feels like the energy inside my body. Like the energy matches now on the outside.”

It was so peaceful for me.

I sat and just became fully one with the whole valley and I listened as the land spoke to me.

A few messages I’ve heard before reminding me of who I really am.

I can’t share those out loud. But it was important.

Then Kellen and I discussed “signs” and how they are just external markers of things we already know.

We had seen a Tarot reader in a group setting a few nights prior and she pulled the Queen of Pentacles for me. A sign of abundance of MATTER

And she said “The Empress. You are almost there.”

In the hallway of the restaurant was the most beautiful painting of a Tara I have ever seen.

The Mother of all Mothers.

So I embraced this game and closed my eyes sitting on this red earth and silently asked the baby spirit for a big sign I could not mistake if he was still coming.

And just then a sound broke the silence of the desert and over my right shoulder a helicopter appeared and flew across the canyon.

I laughed and told Kellen.

When we closed things up, we drove back. I gave her a big hug and told her not to worry and it was perfect.

We walk into the restaurant for lunch and I get an email that something huge happened (I can’t divulge) in a good way that I never dreamed was a possibility.

And I could feel all this energy free up and start moving faster.

Then as I hung up the call, I look down and there is a furry little caterpillar on my sweatshirt.

Hahahah. Oh the perfection is so so so perfectly perfect.

Buckle up my lovelies.

It’s about to expand around here.

We are ready to forge a new chapter.

And I’m so glad you are coming with us.

🙏🏻