As I suspected, a few people have taken my vulnerable post about a nuanced energetic I shared about my own trauma response, one that is probably sub perceptible to most to be confused with my adjustments and sword.

Folks I serve Truth.

I adjust and attune people to a particular energetic.

And I am fierce and unapologetic about it.

It is a different flavor of love.

I always will be.

This part is not meant to be soft.

This is my sword we are talking about.

You want it clean and sharp and PRECISE.

THAT is not my trauma.

THAT is my mastery.

My boundaries of where I’m willing to relate are not because of where I can’t.

It’s about where I won’t.

If you don’t want to be adjusted to the spot on the spot, then maybe wait to speak to me directly. Because there is nothing to talk about until you are on the spot.

Getting there is the beginning.

When you are on the spot, we can begin.

Until you are on the spot there is only adjusting.

I am not available for anything directly face to face off the spot.

THANK GOD.

Why you ask? Because how many people in your life insist you show up in your highest self? Demand it?

If you attended Permission you saw me do this in person.

It’s like being an athletic or dance coach.

NOPE.

AGAIN.

NOPE.

AGAIN.

Again AgainAgain.

One more time.

THERE IT IS

Why do I do this?

Because every time I adjust you, you have an embodied experience of your higher self.

The parts of you that fear this are the ones that want other things.

Parts that need to vent, inner children, desperate scared parts clinging with Terror, parts that love to fight and like drama.

That is not what I do.

You must be holding all your parts and bring me the THING.

If you raise your hand to speak to me.

I will adjust you or I will witness you while you hold yourself.

When you are holding yourself and are receptive then we can begin.

I will hold any releases that are pure without pulling.

From the deepest grief to the most hardcore rage.

I’ll stay with you in all of that.

But not if you are latched on to me like someone drowning!

I’m not here to dialogue, sell you, convince you, debate you, hang out, gossip, collude or commiserate. THANK GOD.

And I’ve noticed that you need some spaces to have these terrified parts be held and rocked.

Which is why I brought on Angel.

Angel will hold loving gentle space for all the littke children.

I will call their parents.

I’m a little like that sign that says “unsupervised children will be given coffee and a puppy.”

You may not feel ready to raise your hand and talk to me in front of 100 people because you can’t hold yourself there. IT IS OK!

This is why in my upper level programs it’s 2 years before they really dive into working with me.

I also have clear boundaries.

Boundaries serve as a place where I will not abandon myself to be with you.

If you come to fight me I will shut it down.

If you disrespect me or the space I will shut it down.

If you are going to tell me how to do my job.

I’m a no.

Those are my very clear boundaries of what I’m willing to engage with.

The boundary means that I’m not willing to get recruited into these particular patterns.

Can you ask open and receptive questions?

Absolutely.

I will explain things ALL DAY LONG.

I’m very transparent and happy to teach.

I actually go to great lengths to teach you and show mechanisms.

But if you don’t like my STYLE, that’s something else….

If you are asking questions to challenge me into proving something to you?

No thanks.

The trauma response I was explaining is a very slight non neutral response that comes in that signals to me a very particular archetype or behavior is DANGEROUS to me.

Feeling like something is dangerous is different to just being a no.

And that danger feeling creates a response in me that moves me from trans personal to personal, which is not ideal in my work.

That is NOT a sword swipe where I cut things off.

And honestly, it’s really almost gone and that’s why I shared it. I nearly didn’t because I knew it would be misused and scared parts would latch onto it as a justification not fully understanding what I was talking about.

Me clearly holding a boundary to an energetic where I’m a NO is totally and wildly different.

I respond to energy not content.

Always. Always.Always,

I’m wildly upfront about this.

This is how I address questions.

I want to make sure I make space for questions and clarifications here.

As I suspected, a few people have taken my vulnerable post about a nuanced energetic I shared about my own trauma response, one that is probably sub perceptible to most to be confused with my adjustments and sword.

Folks I serve Truth.

I adjust and attune people to a particular energetic.

And I am fierce and unapologetic about it.

It is a different flavor of love.

I always will be.

This part is not meant to be soft.

This is my sword we are talking about.

You want it clean and sharp and PRECISE.

THAT is not my trauma.

THAT is my mastery.

My boundaries of where I’m willing to relate are not because of where I can’t.

It’s about where I won’t.

If you don’t want to be adjusted to the spot on the spot, then maybe wait to speak to me directly. Because there is nothing to talk about until you are on the spot.

Getting there is the beginning.

When you are on the spot, we can begin.

Until you are on the spot there is only adjusting.

I am not available for anything directly face to face off the spot.

THANK GOD.

Why you ask? Because how many people in your life insist you show up in your highest self? Demand it?

If you attended Permission you saw me do this in person.

It’s like being an athletic or dance coach.

NOPE.

AGAIN.

NOPE.

AGAIN.

Again AgainAgain.

One more time.

THERE IT IS

Why do I do this?

Because every time I adjust you, you have an embodied experience of your higher self.

The parts of you that fear this are the ones that want other things.

Parts that need to vent, inner children, desperate scared parts clinging with Terror, parts that love to fight and like drama.

That is not what I do.

You must be holding all your parts and bring me the THING.

If you raise your hand to speak to me.

I will adjust you or I will witness you while you hold yourself.

When you are holding yourself and are receptive then we can begin.

I will hold any releases that are pure without pulling.

From the deepest grief to the most hardcore rage.

I’ll stay with you in all of that.

But not if you are latched on to me like someone drowning!

I’m not here to dialogue, sell you, convince you, debate you, hang out, gossip, collude or commiserate. THANK GOD.

And I’ve noticed that you need some spaces to have these terrified parts be held and rocked.

Which is why I brought on Angel.

Angel will hold loving gentle space for all the littke children.

I will call their parents.

I’m a little like that sign that says “unsupervised children will be given coffee and a puppy.”

You may not feel ready to raise your hand and talk to me in front of 100 people because you can’t hold yourself there. IT IS OK!

This is why in my upper level programs it’s 2 years before they really dive into working with me.

I also have clear boundaries.

Boundaries serve as a place where I will not abandon myself to be with you.

If you come to fight me I will shut it down.

If you disrespect me or the space I will shut it down.

If you are going to tell me how to do my job.

I’m a no.

Those are my very clear boundaries of what I’m willing to engage with.

The boundary means that I’m not willing to get recruited into these particular patterns.

Can you ask open and receptive questions?

Absolutely.

I will explain things ALL DAY LONG.

I’m very transparent and happy to teach.

I actually go to great lengths to teach you and show mechanisms.

But if you don’t like my STYLE, that’s something else….

If you are asking questions to challenge me into proving something to you?

No thanks.

The trauma response I was explaining is a very slight non neutral response that comes in that signals to me a very particular archetype or behavior is DANGEROUS to me.

Feeling like something is dangerous is different to just being a no.

And that danger feeling creates a response in me that moves me from trans personal to personal, which is not ideal in my work.

That is NOT a sword swipe where I cut things off.

And honestly, it’s really almost gone and that’s why I shared it. I nearly didn’t because I knew it would be misused and scared parts would latch onto it as a justification not fully understanding what I was talking about.

Me clearly holding a boundary to an energetic where I’m a NO is totally and wildly different.

I respond to energy not content.

Always. Always.Always,

I’m wildly upfront about this.

This is how I address questions.

I want to make sure I make space for questions and clarifications here.