Earlier this week I had an alarming experience where I went for Neurofeedback, trained my Theta all the way down and couldn’t work.

I literally could not feel the field and the sense was like I had a metal helmet on.

I went back and trained my Theta back (first time in the history of his 30 year career) and I thought wow. Mind you the electrodes didn’t work and it was a whole hoopla in my two sessions to even get into the training.

So no more fucking with the Theta, but what about the auditory processing issue. Surely that will be fine.

So they focused on training the back left of my brain while I watched Joe Rogan on YouTube. The screen would go dark and my brain would find its way to make it come back on.

The feeling in my head was so intense. It actually reminded me how I used to get occipital pain when I started channeling. It’s one of the gates the soul enters the body.

It was so intense and I could feel things rearranging.

But later I was having a severe Trigeminal Nerve Flare that could almost have been mistaken for a stroke.

I knew it was not but holy fuck was it intense.

This morning my class somehow didn’t get scheduled so I thankfully… randomly?.. had the day free to deal with myself.

I work with 5 different healers. (Not including my teacher)

Kabbalists

Traditional Shamanic Practitioner

Star Shaman / DNA Practitioner

Rockstar Biohacker Natropath

Chiro / Cranial Sacral

I tell you it’s taken all of them today.

It was so intense we almost had me go to the ER.

But I knew they would not find anything and I didn’t want contrast dye- which could have been a real reaction issue.

But I would have sent anyone else to the hospital.

I have taken myself to the ER in the middle of an energetic crisis before and they pumped me full of addivan and couldn’t understand why my heart rate wasn’t decreasing.

I like working with different healers because they all bring a different layer.

In my experience trauma getting unearthed can be physically severe.

And we all came to that conclusion.

Do not go in there like that! There is no need!

My Kabbalist healers shared with me.

My shamanic friend and I both agreed this is trauma from in the womb. Deep.

My Star Shaman friend agreed trauma and said my cells were unwinding a deep trauma bond.

My doctor really wants me to get imaging. I promised I would if it didn’t clear.

Tomorrow I’ll get Cranio and see if we can move more.

The neurofeedback people had ZERO clue.

Never seen anything like this.

They honestly have felt I’m a complete anomaly.

And it really drilled in that this is too much.

I don’t have to force this on my brain.

My nervous system is wired precisely as it was designed and everything will unfold.

My gifts are a product of EXACTLY WHO I AM.

Every single moment on earth was precise and PERFECT.

And so was this.

Because it was a lesson delivered at a volume I can say “OK. Message received.”

What a gift to be so so sensitive and attuned to this embodied experience.

Earlier this week I had an alarming experience where I went for Neurofeedback, trained my Theta all the way down and couldn’t work.

I literally could not feel the field and the sense was like I had a metal helmet on.

I went back and trained my Theta back (first time in the history of his 30 year career) and I thought wow. Mind you the electrodes didn’t work and it was a whole hoopla in my two sessions to even get into the training.

So no more fucking with the Theta, but what about the auditory processing issue. Surely that will be fine.

So they focused on training the back left of my brain while I watched Joe Rogan on YouTube. The screen would go dark and my brain would find its way to make it come back on.

The feeling in my head was so intense. It actually reminded me how I used to get occipital pain when I started channeling. It’s one of the gates the soul enters the body.

It was so intense and I could feel things rearranging.

But later I was having a severe Trigeminal Nerve Flare that could almost have been mistaken for a stroke.

I knew it was not but holy fuck was it intense.

This morning my class somehow didn’t get scheduled so I thankfully… randomly?.. had the day free to deal with myself.

I work with 5 different healers. (Not including my teacher)

Kabbalists

Traditional Shamanic Practitioner

Star Shaman / DNA Practitioner

Rockstar Biohacker Natropath

Chiro / Cranial Sacral

I tell you it’s taken all of them today.

It was so intense we almost had me go to the ER.

But I knew they would not find anything and I didn’t want contrast dye- which could have been a real reaction issue.

But I would have sent anyone else to the hospital.

I have taken myself to the ER in the middle of an energetic crisis before and they pumped me full of addivan and couldn’t understand why my heart rate wasn’t decreasing.

I like working with different healers because they all bring a different layer.

In my experience trauma getting unearthed can be physically severe.

And we all came to that conclusion.

Do not go in there like that! There is no need!

My Kabbalist healers shared with me.

My shamanic friend and I both agreed this is trauma from in the womb. Deep.

My Star Shaman friend agreed trauma and said my cells were unwinding a deep trauma bond.

My doctor really wants me to get imaging. I promised I would if it didn’t clear.

Tomorrow I’ll get Cranio and see if we can move more.

The neurofeedback people had ZERO clue.

Never seen anything like this.

They honestly have felt I’m a complete anomaly.

And it really drilled in that this is too much.

I don’t have to force this on my brain.

My nervous system is wired precisely as it was designed and everything will unfold.

My gifts are a product of EXACTLY WHO I AM.

Every single moment on earth was precise and PERFECT.

And so was this.

Because it was a lesson delivered at a volume I can say “OK. Message received.”

What a gift to be so so sensitive and attuned to this embodied experience.