My experience of this path is that when you first begin it gives you a wide berth.

Plenty of room for mistakes, to run patterns again and again.

The ability to take shortcuts.

And as you develop a deeper relationship with the energetic power that is Truth, she gets tighter.

The slap is harder and quicker.

The passages through offer no exits or choices or ways out.

Eventually you are nailed.

The only thing in a spot where you are nailed is to

1. Pause. Acknowledge any and all feelings that would prevent you from being with the truth of what is.
2. Grieve the chasm between reality and the expectations or preferences that you had. And to allow the grief to be front and center until movement is necessary.
3. Quiet the mind. My experience is that when you are nailed the ego wants to fight and flail. But you are nailed precisely to force an Egoic surrender so that you can step through a portal of maturation and expansion.
4. Create space in the present by really accepting what is. This could be needing to do a hard thing or face something that is terrifying. Acceptance is the first step to true peace.
5. Do the work. This might be asking questions, doing research, mapping things out. This is a spot where people can react out of panic and make bad decisions. If you move from fear when you are nailed, you will create a ripple of fear and you will have to redo it.
6. Find the deepest truth. Not the sexiest truth or the most convenient truth. The undeniable one.

When I was a kid I had an impacted canine and a baby tooth that never came out.

I refused surgery and my mom went along with that.

Now at 44 I’m dealing with not only the issue that the tooth is still impacted and I can’t get an implant where the baby tooth fell out, the impacted canine caused one of my 4 front teeth to “resorb” aka eat itself or rot from the inside in preparation to fall out.

I am nailed.

There is no easy way out.

It’s one hard truth after another.

There are no miracles here.

I have been sitting in the deep grief.

The lack of proper representation as a child, the loss of my natural smile….forever.

The fact that the amount of dental work I may need and the time it will take could mean we may not have another baby.

These have nailed me.

One after another.

The baby one let me touch the grief for a desire I hadn’t even let myself feel all the way.

The truth it may just not happen.

And instead of bypassing or staying positive or hoping… I put each of these in a box and buried it.

I let each thing die.

I feel the weight of this spot where there is no simple way out.

I can feel the place I would get braces before I lost this canine.

That’s not something I’ve ever felt before.

Where my health is so much more important than the vanity.

It’s a humbling blow to be nailed.

And to not collapse but to open is a feeling I can’t quite explain.

I will have to go so slow through the passageway to make sure I stay conscious at each turn, but im doing it.

This experience has actually shown me how far I have come.

And equally it reminds me that there is no arrival.

Only more Truth and more expansion and more surrender.

I also know this is preparing me for something.

Even if I can’t see it.

It’s for me that much I know.

One step, one breath at a time.

Slowly and soberly.

My experience of this path is that when you first begin it gives you a wide berth.

Plenty of room for mistakes, to run patterns again and again.

The ability to take shortcuts.

And as you develop a deeper relationship with the energetic power that is Truth, she gets tighter.

The slap is harder and quicker.

The passages through offer no exits or choices or ways out.

Eventually you are nailed.

The only thing in a spot where you are nailed is to

1. Pause. Acknowledge any and all feelings that would prevent you from being with the truth of what is.
2. Grieve the chasm between reality and the expectations or preferences that you had. And to allow the grief to be front and center until movement is necessary.
3. Quiet the mind. My experience is that when you are nailed the ego wants to fight and flail. But you are nailed precisely to force an Egoic surrender so that you can step through a portal of maturation and expansion.
4. Create space in the present by really accepting what is. This could be needing to do a hard thing or face something that is terrifying. Acceptance is the first step to true peace.
5. Do the work. This might be asking questions, doing research, mapping things out. This is a spot where people can react out of panic and make bad decisions. If you move from fear when you are nailed, you will create a ripple of fear and you will have to redo it.
6. Find the deepest truth. Not the sexiest truth or the most convenient truth. The undeniable one.

When I was a kid I had an impacted canine and a baby tooth that never came out.

I refused surgery and my mom went along with that.

Now at 44 I’m dealing with not only the issue that the tooth is still impacted and I can’t get an implant where the baby tooth fell out, the impacted canine caused one of my 4 front teeth to “resorb” aka eat itself or rot from the inside in preparation to fall out.

I am nailed.

There is no easy way out.

It’s one hard truth after another.

There are no miracles here.

I have been sitting in the deep grief.

The lack of proper representation as a child, the loss of my natural smile….forever.

The fact that the amount of dental work I may need and the time it will take could mean we may not have another baby.

These have nailed me.

One after another.

The baby one let me touch the grief for a desire I hadn’t even let myself feel all the way.

The truth it may just not happen.

And instead of bypassing or staying positive or hoping… I put each of these in a box and buried it.

I let each thing die.

I feel the weight of this spot where there is no simple way out.

I can feel the place I would get braces before I lost this canine.

That’s not something I’ve ever felt before.

Where my health is so much more important than the vanity.

It’s a humbling blow to be nailed.

And to not collapse but to open is a feeling I can’t quite explain.

I will have to go so slow through the passageway to make sure I stay conscious at each turn, but im doing it.

This experience has actually shown me how far I have come.

And equally it reminds me that there is no arrival.

Only more Truth and more expansion and more surrender.

I also know this is preparing me for something.

Even if I can’t see it.

It’s for me that much I know.

One step, one breath at a time.

Slowly and soberly.