As adults, we play out and process the childhood pain that’s almost too immeasurable to feel through a hologram of experiences. As adults we are able to talk about “bad” experiences we had but it is rare to see people write about what’s truly underneath these adult experiences. Writing about their violent alcoholic mother, the […]

It was important for me to sit and remember this. The impact. That even when they decide they don’t like “Perri” or my style or methods or personality, I can still see the thing I was devoted to in them living in them. In a way like parenting. Kellen and I talk about how it’s […]

They are never coming for YOU They are coming for HER The pitchforks in the shadows The whispers behind closed doors The smell of gasoline on their lips and fingers Let me get my rope They have been trying to KILL HER for centuries SHE is dangerous and takes them out of control SHE is […]

One of the things I have had to deeply work on in my own journey is judgement and punishment I used to be so hard on myself This was my conditioning I was constantly punishing my own nature and any “mistake” because I had little to no compassion and forgiveness for my own humanity It […]

When I began this work I did not have a plan. I got to the point in my spiritual journey where there were no back doors. I could not go back to anything that gave me financial security and I was pointed in the direction of service. I reluctantly said yes I have learned to […]

The perfection of the spiritual journey is such a funny thing that at a certain point you see that it’s a masterpiece. But it’s not only hard, it’s impossible to see when you are in it. The thing about normal CULTural living is you think that it’s normal. Healthy. Not harmful in the slightest. You […]

There was a moment when I was on stage and I thought My God THIS IS IT This is all I have ever wanted. And it had nothing to do with the stage or the audience or any idea about what was happening It was the full liberation of every internal compartment and every external […]

It’s just about a year since I first touched the edges of this wound. A wound so deep it brings with it a dragon breathing fire. Wrath. There is a lot of Grace I need to give myself here because I’m expected not to “abuse my power”. But a trauma response is not force. A […]

Being adopted made me an orphan from my bloodline for most of my life. Growing up inside a false family tree that I always knew wasn’t really mine but for the purposes of my life it was. There was so long I wondered and yearned and on some level I felt so blessed not to […]

I pray for Truth. I don’t pray for a desired outcome I don’t pray for objects or material things. I pray for the sweeping blade of Truth. And for that which is not in my highest and best good to be removed from my life I get on my knees and I lay my head […]

I am not a believer in activism. Most people cannot do activism without the belief taking root as their identity. And then their identity attaches to their nemesis and they become not only one with it, their passion actually fuels the thing they are fighting against. Someone recently commented that they didn’t understand how I […]

There is something I’ve been really sitting with, especially spending time with myself. I love being with myself now. And I love being with myself when I’m not influenced by the fields of others. What has been coming clearer and clearer for me is a remembrance of who I was as a child before my […]

I have culled many items of my past. The hardest ones have been “luxury” items from the days of making 7-figures and a time where I spent money on things because they reflected who I was. Or so I thought. There was a time when walking into a store and spending money on clothes, shoes, […]

I am deep in my alchemical practice at the moment. The mold and the CIRS which I’ve chosen to abandon as my central focus were an invitation to go in with laser sharp precision into the most unbearably painful locations. These are not mental stories. To the physical energy that got stuck and could not […]

I want to make a distinction in practice. The difference between going unconscious in a trigger, and consciously allowing your human to be wounded. What’s the difference? I’m in this inquiry because I just had a falling out with a friend who reacted in a deeply unconscious way and then covered it up with a […]

First, I want to say up front that I do not teach about food. At ALL. There is no mention of food in any of my personal teachings in any program. People have this misconception that I’m out here telling women to get fat. It’s so ridiculous it’s laughable. I’ll come back to this in […]

My life began with loss. It was literally the first thing I ever experienced. Deeply encoded. I can see the perfection that it’s a high level spiritual choice to come in this way if you want to practice the left hand path of loss and non-attachment, but the human part of us still has to […]

I think there is enormous distortion around the concept of friendship and it’s one that I come back to over and over again. What is TRUE friendship and who are my TRUE friends? But I’ve also been in inquiry about whether I even value friendship. Yes. You heard me right. I’m not sure I value […]