It’s been the one place for so long I had no sight

I was flying blind

And it led me to seek saviors who could save me from my body

Now let’s not get confused here

My body is what let’s me feel truth

But when it came to topics the body itself I would get lost in the depths and the density

I would experience extreme terror

And that terror would take me back to the loss of my mother at birth and a cellular level feeling that I had done something wrong and this was my fault

I don’t know how you feel that as a baby

Maybe a past life memory, was a recent thought

That terror translated into terror of my body for a long time

There was a constant fear she would betray me

There was little trust in her and there was an overwhelming feeling that If I didn’t protect her at all costs that something would happen I couldn’t fix and I would end up dead

I can’t tell you how long it took me to alchemize this pattern

Because when I was in it I forgot who I am

And I would just collapse into the density of this small mortal woman

It took me so long to be able to know I’m playing a game in the body

It took me so long to apply the laws of everything I know to this particular experience

To remember to remember even there

To turn into the pain

To slow down

To expand beyond the density and bring the field in to heal her

To break the thought patterns and heal the cells and the dna

“This is the right body. This is the right body.”

Was this resounding message coming out of the Akashic records.

And the deep realization that there is a healing crisis happening.

That I am once again in the cocoon but on the physical level now and this is in fact going to be my most striking transformation yet.

It will take some time of course… probably until my next big planetary movement in 2025

I’m stepping carefully.

I recognize any arrogance at all will lead to falling down a well on my ass and back on my knees

“Listen carefully,” she whispers to me

“Do not try to soothe me or please me

I need you to really hear me

You have everything you need to know right here if you listen”

There is so much I see that I can’t say

You wouldn’t believe me if I did

But I’m a translator

And I can’t translate that which I haven’t felt in my body

Every journey is exquisite, and I mean exquisite perfection

We just must remember to remember

It’s been the one place for so long I had no sight

I was flying blind

And it led me to seek saviors who could save me from my body

Now let’s not get confused here

My body is what let’s me feel truth

But when it came to topics the body itself I would get lost in the depths and the density

I would experience extreme terror

And that terror would take me back to the loss of my mother at birth and a cellular level feeling that I had done something wrong and this was my fault

I don’t know how you feel that as a baby

Maybe a past life memory, was a recent thought

That terror translated into terror of my body for a long time

There was a constant fear she would betray me

There was little trust in her and there was an overwhelming feeling that If I didn’t protect her at all costs that something would happen I couldn’t fix and I would end up dead

I can’t tell you how long it took me to alchemize this pattern

Because when I was in it I forgot who I am

And I would just collapse into the density of this small mortal woman

It took me so long to be able to know I’m playing a game in the body

It took me so long to apply the laws of everything I know to this particular experience

To remember to remember even there

To turn into the pain

To slow down

To expand beyond the density and bring the field in to heal her

To break the thought patterns and heal the cells and the dna

“This is the right body. This is the right body.”

Was this resounding message coming out of the Akashic records.

And the deep realization that there is a healing crisis happening.

That I am once again in the cocoon but on the physical level now and this is in fact going to be my most striking transformation yet.

It will take some time of course… probably until my next big planetary movement in 2025

I’m stepping carefully.

I recognize any arrogance at all will lead to falling down a well on my ass and back on my knees

“Listen carefully,” she whispers to me

“Do not try to soothe me or please me

I need you to really hear me

You have everything you need to know right here if you listen”

There is so much I see that I can’t say

You wouldn’t believe me if I did

But I’m a translator

And I can’t translate that which I haven’t felt in my body

Every journey is exquisite, and I mean exquisite perfection

We just must remember to remember