First, I want to say up front that I do not teach about food. At ALL. There is no mention of food in any of my personal teachings in any program. People have this misconception that I’m out here telling women to get fat. It’s so ridiculous it’s laughable. I’ll come back to this in […]

My life began with loss. It was literally the first thing I ever experienced. Deeply encoded. I can see the perfection that it’s a high level spiritual choice to come in this way if you want to practice the left hand path of loss and non-attachment, but the human part of us still has to […]

I think there is enormous distortion around the concept of friendship and it’s one that I come back to over and over again. What is TRUE friendship and who are my TRUE friends? But I’ve also been in inquiry about whether I even value friendship. Yes. You heard me right. I’m not sure I value […]

A woman I have known for years and have considered a dear friend wrote a post saying that someone copied her work. This is a woman who five years ago I told almost all the time her posts did not land and felt fake an performative. But today she has done the work to embody […]

One of the things I am most grateful for in this experience with Mold is the precision it requires to relate to it. It’s like unthreading a fine cashmere sweater one centimeter at a time. It requires incredible patience and precision. Force and collapse have no place on this journey. It’s walking a narrow tight […]

First, I want to thank you for being a subscriber. I am grateful for each and every person who tunes in to my work and feels the resonance to be here.  I am grateful for YOU. I want to tell you a little backstory about how we are here today you and me. At the […]

The Art of Mockery And it’s place and importance in my teaching… Mockery, like satire, is an important tool in the truth sayer’s toolkit. It’s a caricature. A purposeful exaggeration. There are many people who judge my use of this tool with a spiritually superior set of rules that say this is not kind. They […]

There is this particular moment when driving my car when I gun it and you can feel the turbo and the gear shifts and the whole thing just opens and takes off. I love it. It’s my favorite feeling. To fly. It’s not lost on me when I almost committed suicide as a teenager that […]

One of the immature patterns I see people present with (yes like a symptom of disease) is showing up conditionally, but specifically needing the other partner to provide some assurances first. This can look a lot of different ways: * I need him to change so that I can … * I need him to […]

There is a thread that’s standing out to me at the moment with how I’m handling my house and the way I need to handle my body in this next phase of healing. My doctor and I discussed the trauma I grew up with and the fight instinct and how the way I was going […]

It’s been the one place for so long I had no sight I was flying blind And it led me to seek saviors who could save me from my body Now let’s not get confused here My body is what let’s me feel truth But when it came to topics the body itself I would […]

There is a lot of debate about the “right” kind of relationship out there. Many people giving advice about how to “behave” in order to create a desired outcome. Books and arguments about our one True nature as homo sapiens. People who want to buck systems and not be part of institutions. And as RELATIONSHIP […]

1) The people who got defensive confirmed my observation with adolescent characters and nastiness. The need to dominate, tear down, dismiss name call and belittle me personally. Those were revealing. 2) People who clearly don’t know me thought: – I’m afraid of poly because I am afraid of sex – I must be a “frigid […]

I had a hard day at the Four Seasons today folks 😝 But nah, for real. Let me tell you about why I love mastery. And @fourseasons is a master of the game of service. It’s the kind of attention where their masculine is so fine tuned to meet my every desire. But today I […]

Unless you personally know my woman and I have allowed you into the deep recesses of my heart we are not friends If you have not met my inner child we are not friends. If I don’t pick up the phone and call you, we are not friends. If interactions are me holding you we […]

My entire experience here in Hawaii has been nothing less than Majestic. A number of years ago, before I really started to deepen into my medicine, I had a psychedelic experience while I was purging for days. On the fourth night of this purge, I was visited in a vision by an Elemental Lava Rock […]

Right now I’m detoxing and creating immersive opportunities to sweat. If I go into these things without paying attention I will want to leave the experience right before I begin to sweat. I notice the pattern. The body heats. The discomfort builds. Right before my pores open and the sweat begins to pour, my mind […]

One of my practices is real time adjustment of all things in my field. This is an enormous and sometimes inconvenient practice. It requires me to feel each moment and communicate with precision. It also requires I communicate with approval and staying open to reception. One of the saddest things I see is the cultural […]